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Sunday, November 7th, 2004
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when we all get together on the 26th we should do something special and cool cuz like its the first time we are all gonna b together since fondue like forever and half ago... maybe we should go camping!!! we fucking never went camping bitches. lol :)...
oh also by the way.. along w/ my black and blue lip i also have a fucking burn on my chin from the hair iron.. i look like i got the shit kicked outa me :(.. haha its okay tho cuz i could use this beat up look as like the "sexy im hurt i need help look"
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Tuesday, January 20th, 2004
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if you go to a translating website and type in "Ben" and hit translate from spanish to english it comes out as "horseradish tree". haha i think thats funny.
ok so i have a report due tomorow for school and i didnt do it and i cant finish it tonight sooo.. does neone wanna not go to school w/ me tomorow????
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Sunday, January 18th, 2004
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hmm, so i havent written in a while.. well ok nothing has changed and i dont have nething to write about except for ben because ben is sadly my life. now i mean sadly not because i dont want ben to be my life because i do.. i love him.. but unfortunetally he doesnt want me to b his life.
no matter what i do its always my fault.. like ok for example the other day i drove derrick to wendys and forgot to ask ben (we have a rule where we have to ask each other when we have opposite sex in our car) and he flipped out which you know i guess is fine and i understand where he is coming from because i did make a mistake and i should have asked him... but the part that bothers me is that when he messed up last week and just lied to my face and i got angry he got angry back at me for being angry! .. hes like "ohh ur soo annoying just shutup".. out relationship is not fair.. it somehow is always my fault. im always the one getting hurt whether or not im the one who messed up or not.
and now ben is having second thoughts about our entire relationship because he thinks that he cant trust me.. but at this point in our relationship he can he really can.. im not doing nething wrong and i want to b w/ him only him. and hes thinking about us going away to college and it not working out but he hasnt even tried it.. i think that its worth a shot. we have been together for two years and its been amazing and horrible all at the same time but i dont want it to stop. i think that it could work out if we both want it to, i reaaaaally do. and ben says he wants to go to the same college as me anyway so if we r together then i dont see the problem. i think we should just give it a shot and i dont know how to convince him of that.. i dont know how to get him to see that it will be ok.
i feel like hes drifting away because hes scared of being hurt. or maybe because he wants to see what else is out there and knows im retarted that im still gonna b here if he doesnt find nething else.
we r soposed to have a talk today. i dont know how to act or what to say.. i can either just be like i love you please come back it will b fine.. or i can b like if u break up w/ me then im not gonna go back out w/ you because i feeel like saying the second one but only to make him not break up w/ me.. im afraid if i say that then hell b like ok fine we wont go back out and then im screwed.. but if i act like my first option hes still just going to think its ok to push me around like he is...
ahhh i hate boys.. someone help.. any suggestions??
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Saturday, August 30th, 2003
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1. AP Stat
2. Hon. Survey of British Lit.
3. Auto Tech
4. Lunch
5/6. Hon Environmental Science
7/8. Phys Ed
9/10. History of RCGE
11. Mythology / Study
12. Lapidary
omg jordan is in 5 of my classes. thats soo exciting! ugh but i hate lunch 4.. thats soo early im not hungy thats like at 10 something gah. but im very pleased w/ the end of my day.. cuz like my last two classes are stupid classes that i can just leave for.. yayy :)
ooohh i was talking to jeff from work today and we were talking about the highschool cuz he used to go there when we were freshmans he was a senior and any way he has mrs mgonigle (my nightmare english teacher) and he said that when he had her he wrote this essay and she flipped out on him telling him he didnt write it and that it was too good for him and gave him all sorts of detention and called his mom and everything and then he kept insisting that he wrote it so she made him write something else in front of her and it was just as good so she was just like ohh i guess u did write it and never apologized or nething for it!! what a bitch
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Thursday, August 7th, 2003
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| Subject: | IGC |
| Time: | 10:14 am. |
| Mood: |  excited. |
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yaaayy im soo excited :) ... jordan asked me to go to IGC w/ her today.. its gonna be sooo weird, we havent been there is sooo long. i wanna find theo and tom. soo cute and all the others that i cant think of their names. i wanna stay there for the week, lol.. be a camper again... i could do it. maybe next year i could be a counsler.. hmm...
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Saturday, August 2nd, 2003
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ok ok here is my work schedule for next week, and everyweek after that is impossible because ill be away until august 23rd..
Saturday: good beach day.. no work
Sunday: good beach day.. no work
Monday: no work.. good day for beach :)
Tuesday: 8:30-(4 or 8:30?)
Wednesday: 8:30-(5 or 8:30?)
Thursday: no work.. another good beach day..
Friday: 8:30-4
Saturday: i leave for vacation bright and early in the morning.. which by the way i want everyone to come visit me while im down there... ill b in lavalette for the first week and wildwood for the second week :)
ok sooo what is everybody elses???
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yoooo we need a tcc beach day... c'mon guys we need to do this nowww b4 the summer ends...
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| Time: | 1:10 am. |
| Mood: |  aggravated. |
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my life is frustrating...
tomorow should be good tho :) going out to ice cream w/ ben during the day i think? then i have work and i get to drive allie there!! woohoo jordans little sister.. lol.. and then me and jordan and julia are going to some cool coffee place jordans mom told us about
oohh also a reminder out to julia... dont forget the circus
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Saturday, July 12th, 2003
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| Time: | 12:24 pm. |
| Mood: | goood morning. |
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hello... tooodaaayy i think me and jordan are going to see pirates of the caribbean at 3:40? maybe. theenn me and jordan and sasha are going to play yoga :). then tonight i think me and kim are going to the city. should be an interesting day.. if you would like to join us just call
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Thursday, July 10th, 2003
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ahh i dont get him i dont get him at all.. im doing exactly what he wants me to do and i just feel further away from him. i hate him soo much (hate can always be replaced w/ the word love)... he called me everynight for a while just to see what i did that day or to talk and then i ask him to hang out w/ me and we do and he can sleep w/ me but then afterwords he feels the need not to talk to me for two days and make me go crazy. then today i finally see him online and talk to him but he barely talks back
HailEfish (1:19:56 PM): how come ur not really talking to me nemore?
SX RX n HC (1:20:22 PM): i just dont feel like talking
HailEfish (1:20:37 PM): k
HailEfish (1:20:44 PM): to me or to neone?
SX RX n HC (1:20:51 PM): i dont know
SX RX n HC (1:20:52 PM): stop
SX RX n HC (1:21:07 PM): im goin.. talk to u later
SX RX n HC signed off at 1:21:09 PM.
i dont get it, its not fair.. he cant play w/ me like that. he doesnt even know what hes doing to me.. or maybe he does and hes doing it on purpose... i just dont understand why all of a sudden again hes not talking to me and ignoring me. i didnt do nething to make him do that... maybe he likes another girl again :/ .. that would make sense.. the girl found out he was sleeping w/ me and told him not to talk tome and hes doing what she says. or maybe he just really does hate me and did this all on purpose knowing i would go crazy. i dont know..
its not even like i didnt know this was going to happen, i knew he was gong to do this to me and i didnt think it woudl bother me.. why shoudl it bother me? its not like i want to go back out w/ him cuz i woudnt be happy then either.. i guess i just want him to care
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today i feel like is going to be a very boring day.. i have work from 5-7 but thats all.. nebody have ne ideas for tonight?
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| Time: | 6:15 pm. |
| Mood: | excited. |
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yaaayy today me and sasha and jordan and nick went to NYC and i got peirced :) .. yaayy now im really once again part of TCC.. ohhh man it hurt sooo bad this time thoo.. thank you Sasha for holding my haaand
mmm fireworks tonight at the highschool.. what is everyone else doing??
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| Time: | 12:17 pm. |
| Mood: |  drained. |
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City anyone tomorow???
I want to be peirced...
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ATTENTION TCC we have a tentative beach day for thursday...
sooo let me and kim knoww.. me and kim are def. going, julia said probably jordan said she doesnt know.. sooo its just up to sasha and danielle :)
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